It’s Easier to Numb

It's easier to numb

than to feel;

more comfortable to achieve

than to rest.

I'd rather fill the void with

noise

distraction

food

or entertainment

than feel the emptiness

left by death.

Silence and stillness

allow my mind to wander

and my heart to feel.

I'm scared to face the painful

memories and emotions

that wait for me

in the quiet.

I think I'm avoiding pain

but I'm also avoiding God.

He too waits for me

in quiet spaces;

a Shepherd who will gently take me

where I do not want to go.